So I haven’t been on this journal in… whew! I’d have to check on how long. I’ve been writing, going to school, auditioning and acting, spending time with friends, and working. I haven’t had time to do anything, it seems like.
DS is done, at least as far as I’m concerned it is. Unfortunately, that doesn’t mean that my characters are done because there is some kind of revival going on with my ex and her cohorts. (I’d say ‘our’ but they seem to have gone over to her side, and whatever horrible things have been said about me… they believed. So clearly they were never my friends.) I’d be less bothered by this fact if I thought the people on that rpg could do any one of my characters any kind of justice. As it stands… no, I do not think that they can. All I can do, really, is continue to write them into my own projects, and if a copyright question ever arises, I have screenshots.
Might be kind of flattering, as well, though. After all, if I played characters that people who dislike me still have to mention, whether the comments IC or OOC be negative or positive, it’d still mean they were good characters. Any character or person one cannot go a day without mentioning… well, writers spend much of their time working on characters that are memorable for one reason or another.
Anyhow. I’ve spent all of my time prepping my new room for the semester, acting, and working. I need to add working out, reading, and studying to that list, but the summer has been crazy. New rehearsals begin for me tomorrow evening, and then I shall not have a night off again until August 11th, on which night I shall go see the new Batman movie… possibly. Maybe I’ll even get to see someone who makes me feel… but is so busy right now that… yea. I’d love that.
I think I live for those nights alone with him, and yet I’m living for myself more than ever. Not sure how that works, but I’m happy and that’s a ground breaking enough fact that I barely know what to do with myself. I’m happy. I’ve spent a good deal of my time thinking that it wasn’t possible. I’m happy. I’m in love yet I’m free. I’m working. I’m learning. I’m growing. I’m staying open so that I can continue to do all of these things. Life as an actor is lonely, yes, eye-opening, certainly, but good; very good. I want to SEE like this always.
Well, that’s all for my update. The written ones are updated much more often and are far more detailed. For, though I understand I can type more and more quickly here, there are too many distractions on the internet for me to remember this site every night.